I'm blogging. I told y'all that I'd give you a thorough update of what has been going on with me. The last time I wrote something other than halloween pictures and nonsense, it was about my life being semi-normal and just before that I wrote somewhat of an obituary (although I really don't like that word so we'll call it a "remember&honor" blog). Now I am going to try truly updating. I'll do my best to keep it detailed but not too long-winded. And I'll do it numerically (in no particular order):
1. I went to san diego last week to surprise Dalit for her birthday!! It was fun but I'm not gonna lie, it was totallly not the kind of vacation I needed. I wanted to just relax and be alone but instead I drove a lot and was always surrounded by people. I would have been happy to just hang out with my best friend all day but I had to chill with my aunt and uncle for a while considering I was staying at their house. And on top of all that, my back was killing me the whole time! I didn't pop pills the whole time, only on the flights because I knew I would be sitting for hours and I had stops both ways. [See Dalit!! I'm not a druggie!!] I hate to say it [no, I don't] but I think I need another vacation to get over this one.
2. As I may have previously mentioned, I told my dad a little about culinary school. And I say a little because I didn't actually say that I was planning on going whether he liked it or not. Here's how it happened (with a few extra details, just so it all makes sense)....when I sold my car, I was planning to pay for a new one on my own. I wanted to use the money from selling the old car as a down payment on the new one. My dad flipped a little when he found out I sold it (even though he knew I had been trying to sell it since november...it was now june). After making me give him the check I got from selling the old car, he took me to buy a new one. He told me he'd pay for it and I would pay him the difference ($6000). So just a couple of weeks ago, I gave my dad $3000. He asked "ver deed you get thees money ferom" [where did you get this money from?] and I told him I was saving it for school. He asked "vaht eskool?" [What school?] And I said culinary school. I thought at this point, he would flip out. He then asked "how match ees eet?" [How much is it?]. I replied with "$40000 but I am looking at better, more affordable options". He then said "like vaht?" [Like what?]. Me: "studying in france for a year. Its only $15000 for the whole year, including everything" he then said "that sonds goood. Make de peroposel and geev eht to me tonight." [That sounds good. Make a proposal and give it to me tonight" I was ecstatic when he told me that. I couldn't believe that some words of interest came out of his mouth!!! Was I dreaming? Was I in the Twilight Zone?? Seriously, was I being Punk'd?? More on this subject in a future blog post.
3. I have started to see a therapist. I've only gone twice now but I really do feel like its helping me to let everything out. And its good to know that I'm not the only one that thinks the circumstances in which I was raised were a bit difficult to deal with. Honestly, I was a little apprehensive to go to a therapist. I was expecting someone to tell me so lay on the couch and tell them my feelings as they took "notes" and said "mmhmm, mmhmm, and how does that make you feel??". I would have stepped right on outta there if it was like that. But this therapist seems to actually be interested in what I'm saying. Its like talking to a friend I've known for years. And I totally did not expect to be brought to tears in the first session. Lol!
4. My back has been hurting since my birthday (august 9th, mark your calendars). It has been the worst physical pain I have ever felt!! As of monday, november 17, the pain has significantly decreased. I have no idea how but it doesn't hurt anymore!!!! Its a kwanzaa miracle, y'all!! I know I need to restrict my movements and be careful with what I lift, etc., but I am just so happy it doesn't hurt anymore.
I think that's all for now. I'm going to get ready for school now. I've got 20 minutes to shower and get out of the house and we all know that with me, that's NOT possible. But I'll try my best!!
Peace!!!
FF
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Is it bad that I understand your dad without the translation... "ve vill call eet the vedding of horrorrorr" I am so glad your dad is willing to help you, I think this will be the most exciting thing ever for you, I hope everything works out.. when I come visit will you cook me french food? I saw a therapist, turns out what do you know my dad has something to do with the reason I feel the way I do, I hope it helps you!!!! Reading your blog makes me miss you, I will see you this summer and with a new baby boy named owen:)